The feeling of a little girl inside

boi_gone_lez @ 2008-04-13T04:25:00

2008-04-13T09:42:04Z

so i waws thinking...what would you do if something that you really wanted was being held back because of someone you love? They aren't forceing you not to do it but you know they really dont want you to...Jessica is someone i could see myself settleing down with. but yet i really dont want to start thinking about that yet. its way to early. shes really beautiful, smart, funny, simpilthetic, idk just everything ive finally wanted. but yet then again im extrmley fallin for this girl. idk what to do.

quote of day: people who live so secruely are the ones who mostly end up being mentalized.

Weird feelings

2008-03-25T20:43:16Z

The feelin I have is weird. I don't know who I am anymore. Yes there are some good changes that have been made but along the lines of changein myself I don't like it. I really hate the fact that everyday I feel like everything is fallin down on me and soon or a later everything will just be gone. I'm sure that this phase of feelings will pass soon.

3/23/08 2:00am Salina Regional Hospital. Caprice Davis. My aunt died. Liver faliure and kidney failure. I miss her so much. The few things I will miss the most is her callin me "Killer", and me and Kacie goin over to her house and gettin drunk. lol. Fun times i'm tellin you. Especially the strip twister, and watchin her hit on Kacie's boyfriend. The one thing is her daughter is still in middle school. I will miss you Caprice!

Quote: Scars of one's child hood stick with you as a tattoo sticks on your skin forever.

Pain

2007-07-18T03:22:12Z

they say that life is the high way to what ever. but is it rele. i mean why are we here?
i know we really dont have the answer to that but sometimes i find my self lieing there in my bed
woundering why any one ever pays attention to me. i mean yeah i love haveing friends but i feel like
sometimes i just treat them like shit. idk.

Back home was the life. i mean set aside all the beatings and shit i still love my mom. she tryed her hardest
to be there for me. now that ive been clean and im able to set aside our differences i can understand were
she was comeing from. man i can hardley imagine how hard it was for her.

ADVICE PLEASE!!!

love,
Edii

Friends

2007-07-12T05:01:11Z

so my girlfriend...i havent seen her for three days. our 3 months anneversary was yesterday and i didnt get to see her. :( Today she told me she felt like i was falling out of love and not in love with her. i didnt know how to tell her she was wrong. im madly in love with her. every kiss, every touch, every smile, the way she does things, just EVERYTHING about her makes me melt inside. i just want her to know im always going to be there for her and no matter what she can come to me with her secrets, and when shes sad. ill be there to mend her broken heart. im going to marry this girl and when i do.....its going to be the happiest day of my life!

....and for all my friends. thank-you for being there for me. when i was in need of friends and a new family you guys were there to pick me up off my feet. you guys gave me shelter and a shoulder to cry on, and to pick me up off my feet. im glad i moved here. at first i hated it. all i wanted was to go home. and then i met all of you guys. you guys are amazeing and i never want to lose you guys.

-Edii